World of God Blessed Wonders

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Livejournal is lousy. i can't post pictures.
Reason 1 for dying journal.
Reason 2 is due to pure laziness :D

BYEBYE LJ.
don't miss me

Y'know how a hurricanes hurricane comes and go before you can even  identify Superman in the sky?
"Look a bird! No, a plane! No, it's SUPERMAN!"
What about quicker hurricanes that attacks attack before you can even start on these three sentences? And maybe, what if Superman bails on you? Don't we always see our parents as Superman and Wonderwoman when we're were young? No matter how short or fat they are were, they still look looked stronger than us, and someone who has had the power to withhold "justice".

But i guess, it's just a childhood fantasy, an illusion, delusion, or whatever you may call it. Simply saying, we're stupid and lying to ourselves. Something similar to the analogy happened today at dinner. Hurricane J came crashing, and I don't see Superman. Wonderwoman bailed. All that was left were debris of shattered hope. Hope that resembles a broke jar, SLAMMED with a sledge hammer over and over again. You try to seal the cracks with superglue, but then, the cycle seems seemed never ending. I wonder when will the jar be shattered into peices so small that it can never be repaired again.

If i was were a doll, I'd be a ragged doll. If you press my tummy. I'll say " SHUT UP" (:



















God, i pray that Serene is alright.
Amen.



















I really should stop messaging you when things crops up. It makes me feel worst. It ain't like before. But what can I say? It's already been been a year.

An old telephone.... memories....

Chalet have been really fun, while it lasted.
First time staying out the night for class chalets, my "virgin" night... did crazy stuff with Ces and had romantic moments with Mar.
I love my class even more now, and as much as I'd like to have it again, i know it's not possible cos we're incomplete, and A lvls will perfectly screw up all our brains.

Have been hanging around with Serene a lot lately. I love it when we're together. Silences ain't awkward, and small talks ain't pressurizing. It's just us, and that's all that mattered (:
Tons of photos doesn't seem that much of a big deal anymore, I'll just leave it to words for now. Chalet pics can be found on ZN's blog, serene's can be found on her wordpress, and others can of course be found elsewhere. Like, who will be interested in them anyway?

Typing this post will definitely make me late for tuition. I've been thinking, what do I have in life that can be labelled JOANE? Holidays not gna be like any other holidays anymore.

Ever tried sitting on a bus heading nowhere? Just board any bus that you see at a random busstop, where will you find yourself an hour later? Will you freak out? Get scared? Piss on your pants? Maybe i should try that one day, alone.

Stand on the streets and you see people whizzing past you, without even taking a second battling of an eyelid at you. Me included, we don't stop to look in life, do we? I guess I'm doing just that right here right now, and yet, i don't seem to find anything worth stopping for. OR something worth pursuing. 11 months ago, I'm damn right sure about what I want to do, the direction I want to head for. But 11 months later, I'm stuck. And then if i were to figure out few months later, it'd be too late.

It's just goes the same for *. 1 year ago I was trying to figure out and was thrown off my feet trying to find the answer. and when i finally know the answer 9 months after, it's all too late to turn the clock back. I'm not Hiro, i can't alter time and space. What's gone is gone,  so why does it still flashes in my mind every now and then? Making me do crazy stuff. Please tell me i should stop that (:
I'll definitely listen to your advice.

It's 4.33pm. Tuition starts at 5pm. It takes 45mins to reach PP. I'm still in huge tee & cch pe shorts.

" Is is more scary to be invisible or be avoided? "
 

I have no answer to this question. Stories are too painful to be brought up.
I guess setting my standards higher than i can reach is too big an ambition, maybe i should halt this blind pursue of aspiring to be like *him. After all, he is just human like you and i. What makes his actions greater than anyone else?


"Why didn't i think this way 3 years ago?"


I shall put myself to the test for this week. I can't can do it.

My mind is totally cleaned of what happened in the past week, except that we went Mind Cafe and Promos came back with a roar.
Promos is not worth talking about. Period.


( Ramblings )

Before i start telling you about the marvellous week that have gone by (Thank God), i wanna post a few Water Soccer pictures!!!!!!!!!!! Grabbed from Mar's blog. haha
Love them to bits! ALTHOUGH THEY CAN BE A PAIN IN THE ASS AT TIMES. ha! joking!!! OOPS!


I think this picture is SUPER COOL. look at how the water is flying!

ISN'T THIS PICTURE-PERFECT?! i don't know why, but i just like it tremendously.
It shows something greater within and reminds me of how I was like when i was still a kid, dreaming big... reaching for something much more than i could grasp.
This doesn't just show Ces and I "strangling" each other, it shows how jauntiness can dust off another, yet again reiterating why we shouldn't be sad over something for more than 24 hours.
ok, i give ut 12 hours MAX.
Joane. Get on with life. Dream Big.

Past week have been really really really really "cool" filled with pw pw pw pw pw.
But i honestly feel that it's much much better than studying for promos. Not many agree with me though :S
And then everything's so packed till i had no time to go back tpjc. last week that the jc2 will be there alr! I'll really miss those hockey girls and the few "random" people HEHE!

okay, so ... i remembered i had something on monday, but I HAVE NO RECOLLECTION OF IT AT ALL!
tues was cg, wed with sisters (the photos are currently missing), thurs spent the day da bian-ing at home, fri met ESTHER, ZHUANG, XJ, WEIING AND JADE!

IT WAS ZA BOMB! ( ok now i sound like what ms seow thinks of me)
BUT YEA! IT WAS SO FUN. it really rocks to have occasional girls night just slacking under the stars with lttle children frolicking in the waters beside you.
The service at Vivo's Secret Recipe is very good. The guy who served us is HILARIOUS, i tell you. He says and do all kinds of funny stuff; rushing me to order claiming the girls are hungry (in a funny way), calling me fish-lover, stopping once in a while to change the position of my utensils etc etc. Felt like pinching his cheeks somehow HAHA!
okay random much.
Again, the pictures are currently missing.

Saturday(ytd) had flag day in the morning. HOW MANY PEOPLE COMENTED THAT I WAS TOO FORMAL. but i wanted to wear that like ever since Liting picked it out for me! boohoo. but at least this gorgeous caucasian said she liked my outfit. YAY :D
After which shopped with the girls after svc for a while, and i was tricked by my Dad to rush down to vivo to look for my "LOST" brother. WOW. i feel so cheated. GRR.

Anw, let me introduce you, BPG PTE.LTD !

White board after the lab attendant erased the " Only we are not paid".


THE COMPANY WORKCREW!

 

CLASS OUTING! i shall not upload the retarded photos at Daiso, it's so embarassing :S
And my posts are all piling up because some are LONG overdue. haha


Airport with Serene. We totally didn't know where to go or what to do, so we ended up at the airport. Wanted to go to the library to STUDY, pure madness!! haha
But yea, it's not about what we do or where we hang out, it's about the company ^^v
After that went to meet Kintoh to head for Eastcoast. WAHA, i'm really a road idiot, leading him the opposite direction to eastcoast. OOPs. Played Monkey and Captain's ball and had helluva fun, following Three Kings which didnt seem that much water buffing feeling anymore.
Left and headed for VIVO with cleve and kintoh ! oh no, before that met up with Sam, Genghao and Jixian, harrassing Daniel for our children's day present. (: hehe had  winnie the pooh which is so much of an upgrade from last year's.
Vivo-ed and waited for Piak Piak to end work. Sam and I kept running through the crowd, like how FUN! hahaha!
Watched Painted Skin at Marina sq. PICTURES!



The girls :D

Sam with TEDDY BEAR!






Kintoh so cute right. HAHAH!
 
okay, i guess this will be the end of today's post. There's still so much more to post but im getting bored of uploading all the pictures. Yep, Life's good ! ~ FINGER LICKING GOOD!

A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN

Haven't post since.....

VERY LONG AGO

have like so many pictures to post up ! But posting pictures takes very very very very very long, so im posting some only. Steph's bday pics can be koped from tawan!
:D

So, here's one very long ago, before Tiffy went off to study


Sure do missed her like crazy, it'll be so weird to have gatherings now when she's gone. & what if Fred goes off to army?! MAN ~....

Then i wont have these retarded pictures to post that often anymore !! :


HAHA! OKAY I SHALL STOP POSTING HIS UNGLAMNESS. :S :D


:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Miss her like crazy.
sorry my fault my fault my fault ! :S 
nonono, YIQING'S FAULT! she ps de. ha, okay she'll be fixed into my schedule liao. SOMPA>
ok, now i dont know how to plan my days. RARRRH!
After Monday will be a relieve and yet something to worry about again. There's so much to do !


He always give me a shock when we meet, either jump out of the pillar or something else.
HAHA!

okay okay last photo for this event..... FORNOW....(there's still so many stupid ones luhh....)

YAY.

okokok, waitwaitwait, there's still teacher's day pics!!
I think it was a Friday ?
yea.. cos had tuition, Kintoh, Cleve, piak piak, Stephanie, Samantha all came back!
Went to eat icecream with Big  Bird  :D
See, the best tuition teacher ! haha, if i don't do well for Math i really really really dui bu qi ta. But ya.. i know i won't do well already..... SORRY!
Yea, we didn't get to take pictures though cos after that Zhuang and I had to go back have tuition.

But went back to CCHMS; I MISS MS TAY/MDM TAY SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!! HER BABY DARIUS...
AHHH I CAN'T FIND THE PHOTO!! OH NO OH NO OH NO!

OKAY NEXT TIME THEN.....



Ran out halfway from tuition to meet them! ! ! ! !
:D :D :D :D :D :D
As you can see, the two most act cool guys in the picture. 0.o

END OF IT. PHYSICS NOW. D:

Mar just stressed me.

Days have been so hectic that i have no time to talk about the wonders happening in my life. 
HAHA
that's so encouraging -.-

Yep, my memory is getting bad, but i remember Jump Concert was AWESOME! the image of ruphelle(i think that's how his name is spelt??) dancing is still "haunting" me. HE IS GOOD man.
But yeah, the main thing is, the atmosphere was so good and im really glad i was there (:

Supposed to meet Ces, Mar, YY on sun, but end up only YY and me. ZZZ!
haha but we took a lot of stupid photos which she havent sent me. yea then did a little of GP proj den off we go.

Fastforward.
TODAY had service learning! lol, fun fun fun :D
practised with them Lucky, so sweet when they sing. Dutt's voice is... captivating. HAHA! ooops. cannot look into his eyes. 
yay, and Ms Seow is a pot calling a kettle black! GRR. Call me ____.
yeah, ate botak jones and had consultation for GP with ms seow. ended up talking a lot of rubbish and funny stuff. She's nice ((:
After that, CES TAUGHT US HOW TO PLAY THE GUITAR!!
gosh, im so impressed by Ms Seow, she picked it up so fast la! plus she never play instrument before one leh. Damn pro. Her memory is like.. super duper good, most importantly, YAY! SHE'S FROM TPJ! :D
hahaha. yea den at the food court we started singing and playing the guitar. Doesn't really fit into the food court back drop, but it's fun! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D


I WANT PICTURES! there's like jc anniversary pics, clique bbq pics, Jump concert pics all lost somewhere. quick quick spread around. i want it ): ):  

Things have been so hectic since after mid years. But i love this life, everything being packed and planned days before or even weeks before. And you know each day what you're supposed to do. Although now studies is being slotted everywhere and i've not seen Esther and Serene for months. They still love me :D HAHA.There's so much things i wanna say, but i dont know how to put it in a way that people will understand, or rather, accept it. Was in such a stupid mood ytd, first time i _____ in school. and then, how can i handle another punch later in the day? My friends rocked, they didnt probed and gave encouragement with actions rather than words.

Issues aren't supposed to be discussed in blogs.
PERIOD.

Finally a small gathering / outing with the sisters! haha, SORRY LAAA.... NOT ON PURPOSE DE MA D: D: D: D: D: 
WAH decided on where to eat for super super super super super super LONG. and then we miraculously walked by the ramen restaurant, WOW. 

anw, i find these two pictures very amazing

DONT YOU THINK XINGYI AND JON TAY LOOK ALIKE ?! ?! ?! ?! ?! ?!!!!


"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the same measure you use, it will be measured to you." Matthew 7:7

The weekends were pretty packed, didnt really get to study for math test, but im pretty glad it's over (:
Daniel will be pissed if he knw that the question is the one he asked me to do close to 5 times. and i forgot how to do. :S HAHA
ooops!

Hopefully i can get by the week with fulfillment from pw and perhaps some studying done. I'm slacking now, suffering from a badbadbad pimple in my nose and headache. JC anniversary was fun on friday! I want pictures man...... but i have no idea who has them. D: 
I dont think i'll have time to post much already, and by the time i get to post, i'll forget what happened, like what's happening now. Can you see that I'm crapping?
HAHA
BYE!

2nd Clique svc was great :D
I'm glad Mar and Antonio had fun, But somehow, there's still this uncertainty within me that people dont understand.
But i could.
Rah, okay anw
I JUST REALISED TIFFY SENT ME THE PHOTOS!!

First and foremost,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!Amor Amor Amor Amor Amor you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN! ! ! ! ! ! ! 
Best Buds since forever <3 Wish you well in everything, & STOP BEING SO GAY! BWAHAHA
(Of course I remember man, so brother brother leh, you still owe me coffee btw. Quit pangsehing me!)

Friday

Super fun starting Friday. Went to sch for assembly, and then made our way to St Andrew's Cathedral. Hungry, went Douby Gout to eat breakfast, and tada! We were late. HAHA
The event was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo formal and serious. The council were really good man. All Hail ~

Yep, Went Marina Sq to catch DARK KNIGHT! I tell you i love that show man. 


WHY SO SERIOUS?


(I think Antonio scared of me already) WAHAHA! Certainly a show worth "praying" for. Ha, they will get what i mean. XD
Had such a great time luh (: but felt a little sad that Heath Ledger (Joker) passed away after he filmed the movie.
He's just 29! Yeah... Life is fragile.

Rushed home to bathe and stuff den rush over to tpjc. WAH PIANG, i reached already they still at TM. *ah bish!
Luckily Boon and weien was there already. Saw kaifan, wow i miss his crap. cannot hear liao D: D: D: D: D: D: i like his thin tie ! random much.
Dance fest was alright... I LIKE MJC DANCE! COS I GET TO SEE JADE! LOL! you have no idea how long i've not seen her. Idol sia she dance. *envies*
There's this particular dance (obvious) that totally freaked me and mokout. ok, i guess it freaked EVERYONE out! There's this group of people sitting beside us, i think it's Kathik's grp is im not wrong? They'll SUPER DUPER funny. Practically shouted at everything! esp. the one during the "band" performance. It felt like Teletubbies was singing! MY GOSH. Ear drums can burst. :S

The winner was cool, i like  :D
Had supper with them, talked as usual. Didnt take any pictures, which is sad D:
I've not been taking pictures lately. Posts will be dull although it's been so fun through this week.
Next Stop..

SATURDAY

Most tiring day of the week! Met Ivan in the morning to help his Uncle with the Anti Narcotics Lucky Draw thingy. I think i rolled the draw 300 plus times. Can die, i keep praying everytime i roll that the ticket will be sold and not unsold. And then i was so happy when it ended. Ate lunch and listened to Ivan and his relatives talking. I think all blood relations to Ivan are jokers. HAHAHAHAHA. Hilarious people.

Headed off for church. Was early so went to shop for Rache's present at Centrepoint. Quite fun to shop alone leh.. hehe. Until Ens called they're there alr i still shopping. HAHA. Should do that more often.
Met them at Ailse (is that how you spell it?) Cafe and ate just for the sake of eating. Service was enjoyable. They were wearing Chung Cheng Uniform for the drama! Super funny the way they act, can never believe they're older than me. Laughed until stomach pain.

BBQ after that. Played some games and such, 

Fellow communist :D

I embarrassed myself right after this game with "indian dance" Timothy laughed his head off. -.-

I certainly can't imagine Wen playing Rugby, Please enlighten me HAHA

And, I HAVE NO MORE PICTURES! Hsiao En! Faster upload so i can kop!
Yeah, the BBQ was a blast. Played many impromptu games while eating, the most inforgettable one would be Januver's Forfeit. HE PROPOSED TO THE WALL! I'll always remember it and kick my future spouse in the pipi if he ever does that. YUCK. 

I had fun, real fun. really really fun. :D Thank God that the food preparation people were perservering for our food even though it rained. They had to carry the umbrella and cook la! So.... sad D: Thanks everyone la. haha

SUNDAY

Stayed at home to pack my stuff in the morning. Went Amor's house in the late afternoon. It was kindof fun, esp. seeing everyone again. HOON HOON HOON HOON  HOON ! SO LONG SINCE I'VE SEEN HER CAN! Whole day only hear Dominic saying, wah you know shiyun ah, you know shiyun ah. LOL
Finally, after one whole week, i finally started to camwhore.






NO MORE! boohoo
haha, then we went to the playground and played Crocodile. Super retarded, but i dontknow, it's like FUN! 
Reminds me of primary school days when we'll go playground every single day to play till 6.
After playground-ing, thought they went up to take bags only, so Hoon and I waited downstairs for them. In the end they went to play Rabbit. So we went home first, super tired already.

Yep, that's the end of my week! And a new week have already started! It's scary how fast time passes by. Like how i spent 50 mins on this post and not done any homework. I'm seriously screwed.
YAY.

Randoms of the week:
1) Huai Ching REALLY looks like Preston
2) Kevin's introduction is funny, (Hi, I'm Kevin. & IM FROM AMERICA!)
He has the usual Caucasian high-ess. Rache's bro didnt seemed to pei he. HAHA
3) I want to sleep already
4) I'm not done with EOM and chem prac
5) Who cares. Goodnight !

Met up with Ivan, YX, Peiwen and Car'line ytd.
Peiwen shoulder accident is super funny~ ! HAHAHAHA, oops, sorry ! lol.
And the worst thing is she cannot laugh, with ivan around, that would be such a difficult task. Ke lian ah ke lian.
So we sit around eating our small bowl noodle waiting for Car. She super stressed siah.. CHILL LAX VROOM!

Ivan is such an idiot by the way. Whole day twisting my words, and they can laugh for so long regarding the "see me turned on" sentence. STUPID! grrrr.... 
Plus a lot of retarded stuff. HAHA, they rock la..  :D 
Too bad steph cant join us D: missed her loads

Finally, I pray that Ivan will do well in his O's, Carline can manage her projects given to her and do it well (sculpture :D ), Peiwen's shoulder will recover soon, and YX to enjoy studying in SP.
Yeah, and we can meet up more often !


P.S, WE SAW "MAO" LAOSHI !! 
such a coincidence man..... lol

Today, met up with ens in the afternoon. Bought a top! quite happy. hahaa. talked and then went for tuition. DANIEL FOO SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME ! he damn high HAHA
then first time got people(Dominic) say my  pants nice ? lol, others will say it looks weird. yea, then daniel was sick, i feel sad for him cos he still had to go on teaching. keep asking him to go home he dont listen :S
Then i feel that i disappointed him for my maths results. I was quite touched that he said that i thought i could at least get a B? yeah... i will work  hard, i hope :X
&, I WONT CRY! I'm not the typical girl you thought i was.

Lastly, to those that are sick now, TAKE CARE & get well asap ((:

I'VE GOT CURVY Us AND 1 E !

Suddenly wanna post some random pics: 




"Mao" lao shi ! 


This is funny!! Tha caption on the photo was :" AND FRED BECAME TOTALLY HIGH"
LOL!


Sentosa Trip :D The Good O'  Days..


I suddenly miss going home with YongChuan :S


WHAT IS THIS?!

Zhiwen's sis super cute, can't believe she's gna be Sec 1 next year, SO FAST!!!


:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D Three ex-sundries & One funny conductor 

Fun to randomly close eyes and click on photos. You never know what might come up. haha. Photos always seemed as if everything is so happy, but actually, there's so many behind the scenes that had happened. Somehow, these little behind the scenes might seem such a big fuss at that time, but it made all of our characters grew, made the bond closer, and made us wish that we're all back together. I know that these little big fusses will continue in the future no matter where i am, still i anticipate them, i want to grow through them, and in the process, create everlasting memories...

Realised i always say the wrong things.
Hopefully everything will turn out fine, i dont want t he few things i care about in sa to evolve like that.
I've gone through quarrels with all my best friends before, it always magically brings us closer. Will it happen again this time?
I'm sorry.

When bad things happens, they happen at one go at the same time.

Last performance with Saco on college day. It's like fulfilling my final duty la, that's all i can say. Liu laoshi talked to me after everything. Okay, it made me rethink about everything, even made me feel at some point those reasons i thought were reasons were invalid and stupid. Those things that some J2s said, those things doesnt seem that important right now  (: Rather, it dug up the primary reason of why i wanna leave. Adding on to that, I'm with the sisters.

Yup, I wanna learn how to turn weaknesses into strengths. And be open to feedback and advice, even though it may sounds like insults and critisisms that are baseless and biased. Something that got marked in me permanently, (or i hope :X), " I delight in weaknesses and insults"
It's how i grow. (:

& my week went by like that. Met up with seniors+zhiwen on wed for dinner. Sad that Tiffy is leaving D:
But yep, had sucha great time! WAHAHA. Reached Raffles City with quite a dying mood, but Fred scared that mood out of me by appearing out of the pillar. But yeah, that hug was pretty comforting. Headed for this Jap restaurant, all curry. No wonder my voice sound so MAN now right. haha, Then celebrated Min Ru's birthday, had this tiramisu cake. ooooooh, it's nice~ ! ! ! ! Had a little alcohol , which made me a teeny weeny HIGH. No la, i went high because like.. you know the change of mood, then you just wanna be happy and nothing else. Anw, it's how i used to be ma. Only i forgot how it feels like after so long... and i bet others forgot too. 

Woohoo, played lan ytd, very long never had that shuang feeling. HAHA. ever since played with Jiahong, his bro and Jingwen, den never went into that place liao. Quite fun hur :D

Ok, l'm done with one week of boring post. Pictures taken with them on wed shall be posted soon i suppose.. dont have all of them yet. YOU HEARD ME NOT ZHIWEN! lol lol lol 

yay, im learning to love all i have.